HANS

- I Met You For A Reason -

2012-02-11T21:45:00.003+08:00

I have no right to talk about what's fair and what's not. But life, isn't fair, most of the times. Me myself, is never fair. I try to find a sound reason the moment I face difficulties in life but there isn't one. I found a reason why I encounter such challenge, the moment I feel happy. Is that fair?

Tak semua yg ada digenggaman akan kekal dipegang rapi. Even when you hold it so strongly, there will be time when you will have to let go. Although the reason you let go, doesn't come from the thing you hold. It's because rasa lenguh dan penat telah datang.

Things that u let go, you'll remember for the rest of your life. Even how hard you try to get yourself distracted, they'll keep coming after you. Let's not running away from those memories. Let's face it and fight it.

- Jan12 and Perm -

2012-01-10T00:22:00.002+08:00

I finally got my confirmation letter for my job and also got a raise. I never really wanted the position that I have now but god has made this job so far good enough for my living and I hope god surely plans good future for me as well.

2011 has long left now but some parts of the memorable year still play their roles in 2012. I wish to continue enjoying every good pieces of them and to treasure all bitter experiences at the back of my head. I had abundance of joy and happiness over the year and suffered quite a number of tremendous wave of uneasy feelings. The bittersweet memories of 2011 are surely something that I will never fail to look back upon with a smile cracked on my face. Farewell 2011.

- Hey It's December 2011 -

2011-12-09T22:11:00.002+08:00

I cant believe new year is approaching, and this makes me realize there are some 2011 resolutions that i wouldnt be able to achieve in less than 21days from now. Well, life must go on and I'm looking forward to living 2012! =)

regards,
Hans

- This is it -

2011-07-24T11:58:00.001+08:00

Trying to blog from my brand new android fon ....

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- July 2011 -

2011-07-02T08:56:00.003+08:00

Sedar x sedar skrg dah masuk Julai. Masa begitu pantas memintas. Aku kini bergelar kuli di bawah satu sektor swasta di ibu kota raya. Tiada lagi buku2 teks dan nota2 akademik perlu ku hadap. Hanya komputer peneman aku sepanjang siang hari Isnin ke Jumaat. Sebulan berlalu, aku semakin dapat membiasakan diri dengan suasana baru selepas tamat zaman pengajian di UIA. Aku puas dan aku bersyukur dengan pemberian tuhan yg aku kecapi kini. Sekian Julai update.

- Happy & Excited -

2011-04-08T09:05:00.002+08:00

There's one more paper to go before I'm officially disconnected from UIA bumi bertuah. Huah! Haha. Yeah indeed. But, the one more paper is on Wednesday next week. Haiyoh so long have to wait ah. Whatever it is I'm so glad this final paper is not a killer one. Killer2 ones dah lepasss. Yesterday's paper was the most 'terriwhorrible' paper ever; Topics in Islamic Literature. I guess I did it well though. Uuuuiihhh seronok menggoreng paper tu. Ok tell u what, I'm happy n excited today because I'm going for an interview this afternoon at 3. A job interview. My first interview. Gonna update bout it later k. xoxo!

- I Miss My 3rd Language -

2011-04-05T05:26:00.002+08:00

If u have the chance, it's good for u to know more than one language. Even our Prophet Muhammad s.a.w encourages it. But then it's not so easy to acquire second or third language, especially when u acquire it after the critical period (or after u reach puberty). As for me, Arabic is one of the second languages I acquire since childhood but I haven't been practicing it ever since the Arabic classes ended last semester. It's a big loss and I feel sad not having Arabic lesson for the rest of my life anymore and that's why I feel free and more than happy to help my friends who are still taking Arabic this semester. I know it's not easy to pass but I'm really amazed by their efforts to make it through and sometimes I feel sad looking at their struggle. I wish them good luck and all the best for tomorrow's paper, Elementary Quranic Lanuage Level3, 4, 5, and 6. Ma'at taufiq wann najaah!

- A Letter of Apology -

2011-04-03T17:38:00.002+08:00

Dear F,
I'm pretty sure by the time I write this u are still mad at me and nothing I do will make it right between us. I know u r upset n devastated n what not but forgive me please.

Today is 03-04-2011. Seven months ago I remember u came to me n that was the first time I truly met u! We became closer, fell in love with each other and u asked for a serious relationship. I took time to consider bcoz my heart just healed itself from past relationship but I was still opening my heart. Looking at ur effort, I knew u r the right person for me so I proposed for real.

Three months later we split. I'm truly sorry for it was all my fault. I thought I could handle ur 'big head' n no matter how well I knew u, ur emotions were too much for me that I couldnt take them. I didnt mean to break things up between us but I needed a time off to free my mind. The fact that u had an affair with another guy behind my back sliced my heart.

U told me that u tried being with someone else to forget me but failed. A month later we got back together after realizing that we both could not forget each other and could not stop loving each other. U waited for me to 'give ur ring back' and I waited myself for the right time to do so. Before I knew it, u eloped with my best friend whom u barely know from regular visit to his house with me!

And that was the end of us. I tried to get u back and grabbed u from falling down from me but u seemed determined. I tried to talk to u but only to find that u shit on my face in front of the public so I surrendered. With all humiliation, I let u go, leaving bad reputation on my name for not handling my relationship well enough.

Two months later, while I was in class, my phone rang with ur name on it. My heart sank. I didnt pick up and saw a lot of missed-calls. Eventually I found my self in front of u after u said that u needed help in a subject. After a few minutes, i saw glitter in ur eyes and u burst into tears and hugged me tight. That time i realized that u still loved me n couldnt forget me as u told me. Here I thought u were way over me after teasing me all u could. U told me that u were not happy and cried over me everyday and being with my best friend could not make u happppyyy. And u said ... u wanted me back ...

Dear F,
Im so sorry i just could not be with u anymore. I loved u so much n it is my nature to love my lover very very very dearly but what u did two months ago was just too much. A number of friends witnessed my sorror while u were happily spending ur time with ur new guy. Right now, i didnt feel ur love anymore n i didnt want to pretend. and if because of this u hate me right now, i couldnt stop u and i once again apologize. Since u dont wanna be friends, i wish u well and take care, F.

Yours sincerely,
Hans

- Fall After Fall -

2011-03-29T09:28:00.002+08:00

"So it is with all things; the quicker they grow, the quicker they decay; while on the other hand slow produced is slow consumed."

I quote this excerpt from Ibn Hazm's work 'Falling in Love'. A prominent Muslim scholar long time ago. Cool eh u guys should check on that article coz it talks about the reality that happens to love birds. Now I feel like sharing my real experience.

The above statement tells us that he who falls head over heels in love will be more likely to have short-term relationship, on the other hand a relationship that takes time to establish will last long. Somewhat, Ibn Hazm words struck me once again recently and it devastates me till right now.

I admit I easily fall in love provided that the person whom I fall for is one I like to see. However it always turns out that what we like does not always return the feeling that we hope for. Aaaalways. So all what we do is ...? I don't know. Do u have any suggestion? Part of me says to back off, butt out, and let it go while the other part says do better, try harder, and keep it low.

March 2011

2011-03-27T16:15:00.002+08:00

I skip 2 months of writing and I don't know why. I have lost my passion of writing and I wonder why. I guess I haven't lost it completely and that's may be the reason why I am writing right now. For starters, I wanna share some good news. First, I only have a few days left in UIA. Second, I am officially single. That's all for now.

- Forgive But Never Forget? -

2011-01-20T02:33:00.002+08:00

Dear Gentle Readers,

It is human nature that that everybody makes mistakes. Realize it or not, many people they are always on the right side. Even worse, blaming others becomes their habitual attitude. Well yes everybody has their own right to hate people, put the blame on others, be self-centered and what not forgiving is the best cure to a heart full of hatred. Over the years, I rarely found those forgiving hearts who always crack an admonishing smile on their faces even people around them are being unjust. It is the teaching of our religion which states "the strongest among u are those who can restrain themselves from anger". Good luck guys =)

- It's 2011, 1st Entry! -

2011-01-17T09:40:00.005+08:00

Dear gentle readers,

I cant believe it's already 2011 and half of January has already gone. New days I have now since my last entry, yeah. I am now living a new life which i think many friends wouldn't like. I've put aside so many things, hurt so many hearts, neglected so many responsibilities. For that, I apologize. 2011 is yet another challenging year for me which guaranties nothing but lots n lots of griefs and sorrows n tears. Whatever it is, I am pretty sure 2011 witnesses a new life of me especially during the 2nd half of the year. Wish me luck. =)

- Look Behind the Veil -

2010-11-25T20:36:00.002+08:00

We shouldn't really truly believe
anyone in the world. People lie all the
time. What if they don't speak? They pretend.
Don't believe what you see before you what but creep
towards the veil behind. Info that you get might cause chaos
but the truth that you find will surprise you. Then you'll realize
you've done mistakes and before you know it, it's already too late.

- Inched to Death -

2010-11-24T08:57:00.003+08:00

I just visited a friend of mine punye hometown whose family just involved in

an accident and somehow i felt disturbed. I kept thinking how god is

mighty that He chooses who to save n who should return. Even

we might have observed all the safety steps that are stated

in a safety requirements manual, one might b lucky not

to do all those so called safety steps.

- Is It Time Yet?-

2010-11-20T02:05:00.002+08:00

Never know when to give up.
Now it's coming to it, to giving up.
I put my trust on it.
My whole life was on it.
There's too much suffering.
I felt too much pain.
It's time to call it quit.
My heart at the moment,
cant take any more pain.
Is it time yet?
For me to switch it off?
I forget I've switched on.
Now i'm in a state of nowhere.
I've nothing to offer.
I wonder myself.
I doubt it.

- A Little on Edge -

2010-11-11T01:44:00.002+08:00

Life is unfair. Sometimes. For people like me, we say life is cruel.
For some reasons, we just hope we live another life. Everyone
has their turn-up points. Some people like me have many
downfalls. There are those who think they are jinxed.
Many of them live miserable life. What life is for,
never reaches their thoughts. For that, many
choose to end their life.

Alas . . . I'm living a boring life.
Things around me don't seem to
agree with my desires. I'm so hope-
lessly going down with my emotions.
They really push me down. I think I have
too many bad karma, for what I have done to
people around me, to those who'd been my company
over the years.

- Lover Every Year -

2010-10-25T03:11:00.002+08:00

Every relationship is different. We deal with different people every time
we break up. Yet the feeling of being hurt is the same every time.
Different people might take breakup call differently. There
are people who meroyan sane meroyan sini. There are
people who say kau pegi mampos aku benci org mcm kau.
There are people who go begging like crazy like the world stops
spinning and dia terperangkap dalam memori lama. And then there is
this group of people yang buat2 x kesah saying dah x ado jodoh nak buek
camano. So which type of person are u, ask ur self now before ape2 terjadi.

Sesakit mana perpisahan, we just have to deal with it. Seindah mane memori,
they are just memories tinggal kenangan. But the question is whether or not
you're willing to see the face of your love ever again. Things got fucked up
in the past but that doesn't deny the fact that you both know each other
very well that it's a waste to just disappear. Yeah strength and deter
mination are important if u ever decide to separate but still wanna
stay connected. The point i'm making is that, lovers love each
other, ex's know each other, and they don't pick on each
other to let one party down.

Pening lalat ke bace ni? Haha. Purposely.
In simple Malay, biar ado rasa keciwa, jangan
simpan rase benci. Tiada guna berperang dingin.
"U just create ur own hell". Cheers. =)

In loving memory .. M & D ..

- Better at the Second -

2010-10-18T19:50:00.002+08:00

Everybody deserves second chance.
It's how the learning process makes
progress. When you close ur eyes, u see
abundance of problems coming before u.
When u open ur eyes, u see they keep coming
back. Close ur eyes and take a deep breath, u feel
relieved. Open ur eyes draw ur breath, u find good
solution to win ur case.

Problems are just problems u just have to deal with
them sooner or later. But the hardest part is to take
part. Many of us are overwhelmed by problems
and turn back easily. Many also survive with
lots of cuts and injuries. But the enemy
never surrenders. Why are we
fighting? Coz I made mistakes.
So give me second chance for
better future. U'll never find
a battlefield ever again.

- Clouds and Rain -

2010-10-17T20:07:00.002+08:00

Life is full of surprises. Ones that are expected and ones
that we never see them coming. We pay more
attention and give extra caution to ones
that are expected but things happen
when u least expect it.

I personally experienced
waves of surprises but many
times they were unpleasant ones.
You know how surprises come about,
my surprises are like lightening bolts. They
strike mercilessly leaving u high and dry. I can
never handle unpleasant surprises very well. I'll be
the clouds and pour the rain for days and weeks and months.

- Comfort Zone -

2010-10-06T16:14:00.002+08:00

Among many zones we go through in life,
comfort zone is one that makes us feel secure
AND insecure. We feel secure when we think that
there's definitely nothing to worry about things we
possess, like nothing's gonna threaten the comfort
place of that thing. We feel insecure because we
are static, unchanged, unchangeable. Nothing
we say would alter the whole situation or
status of something. However, other
things or persons would. Words of people
are unpredictable and might be frightening too.
What comfort zone there is if the decision is not in
our hands but others'. Pray and play well there are!

- Betrayal -

2010-10-02T09:27:00.004+08:00

It’s not easy to handle a serious relationship whereby u know ur degree
of loyalty n u know as well who ur partner was, or is. Sometimes it
just gives u utter headache thinking about unnecessary things about
ur partner but u just can’t help it. Well this normally happens to
those who are in the upper degree of loyalty. To those who
place themselves in the lower degree of loyalty, it’s like
they can never stop doing ‘bad things’ if u know what
i mean. Why choose this kind of person in the first place?
The answer is cliché; Love is blind. Or some might emotionally
state, “i didn’t know he/she was a bitch until recently!”. For that
matter, they dump their partner so much as a blink of an eye. There
are however people who honour the feelings of love who still forgive (n
forget?) n risk their heart just because leaving him/her feels like being cut
by a blunt sword. Imagine that?

I’ve heard of many friends whose
hearts have become as hard as dead
rock after experiencing several waves of
hard relationship n being betrayed so many
times. End up he/she now can merely say "hey
who’s counting, all i know is that i won’t be falling
in love ever again." End up, from the higher degree of
loyalty, they fall miserably to the lowest degree of honesty.
I can’t wait till i reach that status. Hmm.

- Mundane Activity -

2010-09-29T17:47:00.002+08:00

Day to day life activities sometimes are fun
to do repeatedly for a week or so, or a month,
might be a year, to some people. To others, it's
better to have different things after another so that
xde la bosan ngadap benda yg sama for a long period
of time. In pursuing whatever goals we target, we must
always remember not to forget others who are with us all
the time from behind, who are walking together, competing
each other, taking care of us, concerned about us, giving supports
unexceptionally. They might be important might be not. It's nothing
but we value who they are and realize that we out of other people in the
world, exist and noticed. =)

- What Brought You Here -

2010-09-26T07:41:00.003+08:00

I have faith I have trust. Now I stand I could fall. Where I go, should I be
back? Life is large the box is small. Where you go u meet me still. I am
here and everywhere else. How can we wish god split us then? Wish
is just wish. We never know the future. Now I chill u can haunt.
But I'm free u are sad. Dont be! For I am now as who I was
before. Only bigger. Different. Oh my how can I be sorry
for ya. Bring your day if u move. But let me stay if u're
screwed. The past is past will never change. My heart
sank but I must go. But make ur day, I always watch.
You can come but split our moves. =)

- Dreams Are Not Dreams -

2010-09-22T17:40:00.002+08:00

Semua org punya mimpi indah n pernah juge alami mimpi buruk. SOmetimes
mimpi indah jadi kenyataan, sometimes tinggal mimpi saje. Ada pule yg
mimpi buruk comes to life and we never expect it to ever happen. Lagi
pulak, by that time we are not ready for any troubles. What do you expect,
life is full with surprises. Hanya berharap, pada waktu sukar, kita mampu hadapi sume.

Other dreams, is kind of the things we want in the future.
In my life, these are what I dream of:

1- Own a house, big enough for me to live my life. Means, xyah besau2 pun tak apo.
2- Drive nice car but suit me. Compact car also ok lor.
3- Have good job. Well paid if it's enough to send some to ibu ayah.
4- Comfort life physically emotionally financially. No money no talk kan.
5- Still hang around with good friends. It's nice to have big crowd here n there.
6- Bebas dari utang piutang. Memang liat nak bayau PTPTN nanti.
7- Better man. Hope member2 happy ngan aku, tak punya musuh. Langsung.
8- Yang ni pelik; aku nak bekebun, sayur dan buabuahan.
9- Own house for rent. Dapat gak side income.
10- Ade business sendiri. Tapi nak goyang kaki. Hah!

There still a lot more but not yet in the list. Hehe. Tapi ni berangan jek keh.

- This Will Do -

2010-09-22T16:29:00.004+08:00

Read the poem and analyse it in terms of its lexical and phonological choices.

The Pessimist

Nothing to do but work,
Nothing to eat but food,
Nothing to wear but clothes
To keep one from going nude.

Nothing to breathe but air,
Quick as a flash 't is gone;
Nowhere to fall but off,
Nowhere to stand but on.

Nothing to comb but hair,
Nowhere to sleep but bed,
Nothing to weep but tears,
Nothing to bury but dead.

Nothing to sing but songs,
Ah, well, alas! alack!
Nowhere to go but out,
Nowhere to come but back.

Nothing to see but sights,
Nothing to quench but thirst,
Nothing to have but what we've got;
Thus thro' life we are cursed.

Nothing to strike but a gait;
Everything moves that goes.
Nothing at all but common sense
Can ever withstand these woes.

- Soalan exam tadi. Adeh. Leceh. Conclusion:
avoid urself from doing mundane daily routine. It's boring. Haha. -

- Biarkan Sajo -

2010-09-17T18:34:00.003+08:00

Sebagai hamba, manusia perlu ade sifat rendah diri dan berlaku jujur
pd stiap perbuatan. Tetibe ske tules in malay lak lately. Haha. Ok
teruskan. Non hado gunanya untuk kite nak meninggi diri
mcm bagus sesangat kau tu. Hmm da mcm bhs ape je ni
kan. Terus lagi. Tak rugi ape pun kalau kite buat dono
sahaje kalau org buat tahi kat kite. Dah makin teruk.
Tukar la. Well, I have been telling myself to stay
cool to whoever crosses the line before me, in
whatever situation that engulfs me. I hope
I'm getting used to it from time to time,
forever and ever. Because I dont like
to be who I used to be; hot tempered
mcm hanjen kurap kelaparan;
sume aku nak maki; macam2
aku nak baling. Now, not
anymore. I think I'm cool.
=)

- At This Time -

2010-09-15T18:51:00.003+08:00

Setelah banyak yg ku lalui, hati ini berat untuk melangkah lebih jauh. Kadang
sangat takut untuk berhadapan dgn kenyataan. Kadang takut untuk
dikecewakan. Saban hari diri ini sudah berasa bosan dengan
detik2 lame yg selalu dikenang. Tiap kali kucuba gagahkan
diri, perasaanku bergelumang memberontak. Apa terjadi pada
diri ini. Perasaanku tidak same seperti dulu. Yang hanya kumampu
lakukan, menunggu dan menunggu masa berlalu penentu semuanya.

- Never Again -

2010-09-07T14:21:00.004+08:00

People in different world experience
different kind of challenge. One of the
biggest challenges is being insulted. Not
just any but like a big wave of it coming on
u, slamming u till u collapse. How would u face
a situation where ur dignity lies beneath other
people's footsteps so high. Another angle is
how would u imagine if they are people
u know best, or, friends u stay closest.
Some would go burst n smash them
into pieces. Some just keep quiet, think
of it like a piece of shit. Some would say
little, be sinister, and slowly make
progress. Oh wait all of u. Do
whatever u want. Say whatever
u please. Just don't go over limit.
Know your boundaries. Sometimes
we think our problem is big but it's
ctually smaller than water molecules.
Some other time, we think how we react
is just nothing in the end. We never now
it might end with wound cut, swollen
eyes, or worse, bloodshed. Return
to the root n remember God. =)

- Who Turned The Marshmallow -

2010-08-27T22:43:00.002+08:00

We deal with different people with different heart everyday.
Some of them we deal with from day to day. Something
somewhere we somehow realize there's something
wrong with the relationship we made way earlier.
It's different now. The person we know so kind-
hearted is now a completely different person.
Or, it might be that the turn is from being so
motherfucker to humble 'God-praiser'.
Time changes it all.

- Samsung PL10 For Sale -

2010-08-25T13:38:00.005+08:00

gonna sell my red Samsung PL10 camera now at RM900 (can nego, haha) with the complete set in box as u buy it original .. great features n still in warranty !! cntct me now !!

Samsung PL10 - RM900
brand new,
complete set in box,
8GB memory,
charger USB,
casing, etc.

9 MegaPixel camera
11 optimized picture pre-settings
Face Detection and Recognition
Content Management system
Auto focus and auto exposure for better image quality
Prevent blurring from handshake
Perfect for photography enthusiasts

- Thursday to Friday -

2010-08-20T14:56:00.003+08:00

We think it's gonna be long a whole week, yet Thursday to Friday
of the week after is felt like yesterday. That's when u r in a
pleasant mood, or at least normal mode. Imagine going
through a week of agony. It feels like a day never
ends! People u know today r different people
of the next year. Lover u love today might
change face or physical outlook entirely. We
never know what will happen next days. All we
can do is just cherish the moment while it's still there
n exists, appreciate every single day of it with the one we
love, hope nothing else but happiness in the future that lasts
4ever. Because most people only regret then, n feels like they lost
everything else as well.

(= For me, I will love my love. As best as my love can. =)
Happy Friday all

- Happy Independence Indonesia -

2010-08-18T12:18:00.002+08:00

I heard yesterday, 17th Aug, is a historical
date for Indonesia just few days before Mesia
celebrates its own. And I'm thinking of self inde
pendence now. Self independence is one of the many
important things in life everybody wants to have n feel.
This would mean that u r not restricted by any rules n
regulations or even laws. Alas we humans r not that
free. Muslims especially have many limitations.
I'm not complaining. Just mentioning. Yet true
independence to me is being free to do what
we want, feeling free to befriend with
whomever we please, going to any place
we prefer, so on so forth. We dont want to
be in control. We dont want any body to tell
me to do this n that. But sometimes, for the
sakes of people we love, we are forced to do
certain things. We dont want to but we have
to. Ever been in this situation? Yeah what c
hoice do we have between two roads. If one
is taken, what happens to the road not taken?
My advice would be, dont be too close to any
destination, dont create enemies. Stay along
side between the two? You tell me people.

- Just Wait .. There is .. -

2010-08-16T17:58:00.003+08:00

In achieving somethng in life, I always
tell myself tht we dont always get what we
want. What we dont really want is always besepah
depan mata. Of course we choose to own things that
we like the most n let the rest to waste. When it
comes to things tht involve feelings, human
feelings, we go nuts over few little things.
Sometimes what we want is not the right
thing. Sometimes what we see everyday is
the one that u need the whole life. Be grateful
of what u have n what u get. You'll know how
valuable that thing is when it's finally gone!

- Oh There You Are -

2010-08-10T17:12:00.002+08:00

Ya ramadhan u come again. We've been missing u, been waiting 4 u.
Although some sigh n feel 'annoyed', u r still welcome by the rest
of us. Every year ramadhan keeps different memory for me.
And every year, I dont plan on creating any memory,
good or bad. Yet, every year in ramadhan, it surely
makes me reminisce. But what is past is past and
i'm moving on leaving all those bittersweet
memories. Ramadhan is always a month
of bless n forgiveness. To all people out
there, i forgive u for ur wrong doings.
In return, forgive me with all ur hearts.
Happy fasting!

- How Should I -

2010-07-06T10:34:00.002+08:00

When we r happy, we smile. Sad, cry. Angry, scold. Jealous, santau.
There r people who cry when they r happy. Laugh, when the
heart is in pain. Keep quiet even when the heart boils from
anger n revenge. Just let go of everything. Some people think
it's best to fake their feelings. Some people just don't know how to
hide. Because they can't hide. Is it wrong for a sad person to cry? Men
are known for their strong determination n hati sekeras batu. But men
also have feelings. Some men have ego but they don't realize it. Some
r just too humble n have heart too weak to be egoistic. Then is it
wrong for a man to cry? At least we do know how he actually
feels something. We know he cares. This excludes those
not so manly guys out there. They are known for their
touching2 hearts (although recently i learnt not all
of them nak touching2 sgt). I'm talking about truly
deeply manly guys who....... cry because of love.

Betrayal

2010-07-05T12:18:00.002+08:00

It’s not easy to handle a serious relationship whereby u know ur degree of loyalty n u know as well who ur partner was, or is. Sometimes it just gives u utter headache thinking about unnecessary things about ur partner but u just can’t help it. Well this normally happens to those who are in the upper degree of loyalty. To those who place themselves in the lower degree of loyalty, it’s like they can never stop doing ‘bad things’ if u know what i mean. Why choose this kind of person in the first place? The answer is cliché; Love is blind. Or some might emotionally state, “i didn’t know he/she was a bitch until recently!”. For that matter, they dump their partner so much as a blink of an eye. They are however people who honour the feelings of love who still forgive (n forget?) n risk their heart just because leaving him/her feels like being cut by a blunt sword. Imagine that?

I’ve heard of many friends whose hearts have become as hard as dead rock after experiencing several waves of hard relationship n being betrayed so many times. End up he/she now can merely say hey who’s counting, all i know is that i won’t be falling in love ever again. End up, from the higher degree of loyalty, they fall miserably to the lowest degree of honesty. I can’t wait till i reach that status. Hmm.

- x.o.x.o -

2010-07-01T12:09:00.001+08:00

""""""""Who am I? It's a secret I'll never tell. X.O.X.O, Gossip Girl..""

Leisure times sometime are best 2 be wasted just like that without anything beneficial 2 do. Some people fill it with spending time shopping n wasting time. For wealthy people, every time is leisure time n they go nuts spending money to god know what. My friend introduces me this series about scandalous life of Manhattan's elite families. They show displays how rich people exploit each other to show who is more powerful, in their own ways. So this is what I do during my leisure time. Finishing this series. Haha. Fun though.

Serena Van Der Woodsen; Dan Humphrey's gf, Chuck Bass's step sister to be.

That's Normal

2010-03-09T20:01:00.002+08:00

"When u get ugly, ur lover won't look at u anymore"

I found this statement, which was specifically said to me, true.
When ur lover thinks u don't look attractive enough to his or
her eyes, he or she will leave u. For example macam pas
accident ke, jatuh pokok ke, tertoreh muke ke, bla bla
bla. Fair enough. If he doesn't show it (brave enough)
that he doesn't like u anymore, he fools u by bitching
around behind ur back. There are many ways of doing
that. I've experienced some of them. I can't stand facing
that moment again. And again and again and again. My heart
is so fragile. Senang sangat cair bile dipujuk. Senang gak to forgive.
But sangat susah to forget.

HAUNTED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Massive Birthday Explosion

2010-02-24T07:49:00.004+08:00

20 Feb 2010
Saturday
Rainforest Sports Bar, Pavilion, KL
8pm - 3am

Last weekend, a kid turned 11. There was no special about being 11.
But there was extraordinary event for his ceremony. A ceremony
that to me, he would never forget. Let's begin the reminiscence
of that party with this cute pic:

The birthday cake. Unique. First time aku tengok bday cake ade pic. Haha.

Frens and families came with smiles on their faces. =)

They danced gracefully to celebrate the cute little boy.

A family was reunited. The mommy was super happy for her kid.

Some were being competitive. It was no racist. Haha.
Live band was havoc! Very cool.

Pool pun aderr. Main la kau sampai lebam.

Some became real red devils.

I never forgot myself. Still stick to the corner. Hehe.

Oh it was for Lovers n Couples too! Hari kekasih with roses..

Food plak kureng tp ok la bley telan gak. Sexy.

Anak2 ikan aku cekup dari tasek depan umah. Hah.

Everything was free that night. We ate n drank whatever we wanted.
EVERYTHING. How amazing. If you wondered how much money
was spent for this massive event, don't bother! Or you'll die
abruptly from hearing the amount. Haha.

Well for those yang aku x sempat invite or aku lupe nk invite,
thousand apologies. Maybe we're still distant. Hehe. Maybe next time.
Show n shine yourself lorr. Hehe.

Happy birthday Ipman!!

Burnt in Langkawi

2010-02-18T07:48:00.003+08:00

Enjoy the pics dulu ah. Hehe.

One Sin That Lead To Another?

2010-02-12T12:20:00.002+08:00

I took this from my ex schoolmate. Just a quick glimpse but
never attracted to it (the issue). Coz I've had it enough in
my school lorr. Hehe. Everyday is 'love' day for me. =)
What do you have to say?

And Afterwards

2010-02-11T20:25:00.003+08:00

...and then I heard someone twisted the door knob. It was Jack and Syawn.
I saw Jack hurried to his compartment and came out with his hands behind
his back. I ignored, concentrated on the pain I was experiencing. I felt Jack
stepped over my body and poured something on my wound forcefully. The
next thing I heard was my voice echoing so loudly breaking the dusk of
Block B. I knew it! It was sanitizing liquid he put on me. It felt like hell!
Like boiling water pouring on your fresh flesh! I once witnessed how
he did the same to Syawn's cut and how Syawn's pain got out through
his roaring voice. Well, at least we skipped the 'scary' feeling of waiting
for that thing to 'burn' our skin.

And then both of them were gone, for good. I didn't have to worry my
wound getting touched purposely by those two monkeys. Wakaka!
I was planning on going to have my shower when a face that I
recognized so much by its smell showed up from behind the
door. Gulp! Why is he here? I asked abruptly. I welcomed
him by an intimate welcoming I always did but I got a sour
face and his ngokngek ngokngek instead. So first few minutes
of his arriving was followed by thousands of mumbling and grumbling
words of potpet potpet. It went a little bit like "tu la pasal! Padan muke..!
bla bla bla... tak reti main ke..! bla bla... cuai..! bla... gi klinik..!" like this. Hoh,
I didn't expect he'd go mad like that. I just laughed at his potpet potpet.

Eh, did you mention clinic? No I wouldn't bother. Not because I was
afraid of the doc's cruel touch but I had assignments to be submitted
tomorrow. With the accident I just had, it looked like I had to stay
up all night. Going the the doc's would just make the night worse.
Unfortunately, his powerful 'pushy' words defeated my guts. He
brought me to the clinic in the campus. Aaah, as I perfectly
expected, the wound needed some stitches! Argh!!! I'm
kiddig. Haha. They just cleaned it, but I got one injection.
Look:

Haha sempat lagi aku buat klaka ngn kak nurse tuh. Very
friendly of her. Nurse sorg lagi offer amekkn gmba bile die
nmpak cam aku. Ceh haha.
Mr. Ngokngek.

Then melantak makanan arab kat cafe atas. Mr. Ngokngek
lame kempunan mende ni. Hamek kau! Best, sedap, murah.

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Hm boring neh bley le type entry pepnjg. Heh. Da start coti CNY. Tapi de plak yang gatai nk buat make up class esok. Adeh. Jumaat time rehat la dey yennade padayyappa..

Twisted Luck

2010-02-08T20:33:00.003+08:00

Pedih x terkate! I went out of the court, went straight to my kuda
and mounted it. It started to blur. I saw twinkle twinkle little
stars. My mouth dried out, couldn't scream from pain. I
rushed to my room. And passed out...... No, I was
conscious! The pain was eating me on the
surface. Until now.

English is Fun: Constantly Inconsistant

2010-02-05T11:18:00.002+08:00

Why Wonders Lead to Blunders

I take it you already know
of tough and bough and cough and dough
Others may stumble but not you
on hiccough, thorough, laugh and through.
Well done. That sure was fun.
But, my friend, it’s not the end.
Beware of heard, a dreadful word
that looks like beard and sounds like bird,
And dead: it’s said like bed, not bead
For goodness’ sake, don’t call it ‘deed’!
Watch out for meat and great and threat
which rhyme with suite and straight and debt.
A moth is not the moth in mother
nor is broth the broth in brother
And here is not the match for there
Nor dear and fear for bear and pear
And then there’s dose and rose and lose
Just look them up – and goose and choose
and cork and work and card and ward
and font and front and word and sword
and do and go and wart and cart
Yet, I’ve hardly touched the heart!
What kind of a spelling system is that, ask you?
Well, like me, you can master it by eighty-two!

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Salah satu part yg best dlm English =)
Hans Darklight likes this!

Nostalgic

2010-02-03T05:11:00.005+08:00

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above earth or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace

Coldplay - Fix You

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Aaah what a cool song. Lagu ni da lame. First aku dengar
was from my best fren mase kat matrik PJ dulu. Die
ske humming lagu ni. Mule2 xsuke pun, da bape
taun bru prasan best! Haha nostalgia tol.

Blessed Always =)

2010-02-02T00:07:00.009+08:00

Finally the big day arrived and everything
went quite as smoothly as we expected. Lega
rase bile member2 sume sporting and kasi respon
yg meransang dan memberansangkan. Like this. As the
organizer, I'd like to thank to all who came. Although
ade yang banyak hal lain at the time yet still came,
thank you so much. Parti simple kali kitorang
buat kat Restoran Santai depan Tasik Permaisuri
instead of Q Bistro. Kasi lidah telan mende lain plak. Haha.

Anyway, it was his 2nd birthday that I celebrated. I'm grateful
and nervous and afraid at the same time. Mungkinkah ade lagi 3rd,
4th, 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th, or 9th, or 10th birthday during which I would
still be there to celebrate? Ape pun, aku cube yang terbaik untuk
buat yang terbaik for the best of us both. I truly love you. Let's
just hope we make it through.

Happy birthday my baby!!! =)

UIA n UKM guests..

Look, a new face was there!

Reddish. Thx all coz sudi ikut tema. Hehe.

Aaah glorious wif dishes teday eyh?

The 1st second of 31 Jan 2010, blow the candles! - @ Ampang Point Bowling Centre.

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Thx for the presents to! =P

Rocking with Climbing

2010-01-27T16:29:00.003+08:00

This is more like an open invitation to a plan of a plan. Hehe.
Might be jadi and might not be xjadi or last minute cancel. Haha.

We, my friends and I, plan to go for wall climbing this weekend kat
putrajaya. Most probably on Saturday. So to those yang xde pape nak
buek weekend neh, jom le join. Drpd dok terpeghok kat uma goyang kaki
hayon tangan, baik kua buat aktibiti berpekdah, for this time, sweating instead
of having sweet dreams at home.

Sape yg tataw jalan, senang jek, google sudeh. Hehe. Coz aku pn xtw jalan.
My friends akan menggagau gune google map jek. Btolak pagi la ek
coz japg carik jalan da smpai kui bape. Meet you there!

It is Now On Air

2010-01-26T16:17:00.002+08:00

It might be an interesting issue, yet it is also a sensitive issue.
Silap cakap sikit, mampos kau kena 'bom' satu family. Realizing
that the phenomenon is becoming more and more serious and
more people are getting used to it, some authorized brought it
on air. Isu pondan bukan lagi asing di mata dan molot masyarakat
Malaysia. This morning, when I switched on the TV, I heard a masculine
voice, when I turned, it came out from a neatly dressed, beautifully touched up
face, politely speaking woman! Xpecah lobang, sore jek pecah. Haha.

Show - Wanita Hari Ini
Time - 11.30am to 1.00pm
Date - 26 January 2010, Tuesday
Channel - TV3
Title - Kesan Tukar Jantina

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Haha xde kojo eh den timang2 anak smbil tengok tv. Bosannye..

On the Other Side

2010-01-25T10:27:00.005+08:00

Aaah it's ok I watch this movie twice since Sherlock Holmes
nearly comes to its 'outdated'. Many say that this movie
is just 'Oh bullshit, that doesn't make sense at all!'
kind of movie. Well hell yeah who doesn't.
Legion has its own messages.

I can see two major things in the movie thoroughly.
One, the writer try to warn humanity that the world is
really coming to an end. Two, humanity is becoming really
brave to an extent that they challenge the ultimate power of
the Almighty (although in the movie, an angel betray Him, I per
sonally assume that it is a symbolism to no one obeys God anymore).

Mind this: this movie is strictly for entertainment, not for religious
reference. All scenes and actions are supposed to be viewed as
symbolism and imagery. Therefore, there's no question
about 'Hah that's not true, this can't be true in reality'.
Haha. Coz I know and I've heard of people saying
that kind of utterances. See there are elements
of horror.

I don't know other meaning of 'legion' apart from what my
ustaz in high school told us in class that Legion is a demon
mentioned in Christian Bible, and legion is like a group.
Maybe zombie tu kot. Haha.

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Semalam g ngurut kat downtown Cheras. Tido best gilak! Hehe.

Once In A Blue Moon

2010-01-22T22:50:00.007+08:00

I remember the last time I went out with a
bunch of my lovely loyal coursemate friends
was two years ago. Huh nostalgia btol bile aku
hinggap balek kat uma member aku sorg ni some
where in Damansara. Actually kitorg ade jek kua within
years back but not as many as this time. Only a few jek,
xramai. So last Thursday, aku ngan roomates aku plan to
hangout. Original plan was only watching midnight movie.
Malamm tu kitorg pun tgk ah cite yang kua ari tu gak- Legion -
I'll give some feedback later. =)

Casa Indah Condo @ Damansara; a beautiful place with modern style.

Before tgk wayangg jalan2 area cni. Tempat yg pastinye mnjadi kegemaran ramai 'muda mudi Deco'. Hehe.
And then g visit pet shop kat dlm Ikano. Coz there are many pet lovers among us. Including me!
This pic would cost few buck if taken somewhere else. But the guys at the pets' were so friendly.
Memang loteh jalan sesaje. Take a break, make a change @ the Curve.In the middle of the Curve; CNY theme. Quite different, interesting.

e@Curve, was formerly known as Cineleisure. Name changed but nothing else did since I came here 2 years ago. A bit sangkak. Haha.
Melantak Apple Pie pas midnight. Caught sight of Eri Putra. Xde le cute pn. Haha.
And then the next morning, aku gak yg jd mangse kne wat breakfast. Sori le xsdp sgt. Xcukup barang, just gune apo yang ado. Hehe.

But before it gets dark for second day, aku da cabut balik uma. Tak tahan. Rindu kat anak bini. Haha. Haha.

Die Anyway

2010-01-19T22:53:00.006+08:00

Heard this quote from Flyfm Pagi Show-

Eat well
Keep shape
Die anyway

Gelak sorg2 atas moto all the way back to campus. Haha.
And then naik gila coz tomorrow aku ade 2 midterm tests
and 1 assignment gilo nak kne submit; 10am Psycholingu
istics, 2pm Pragmatics, 3.30pm Discourse Analysis. Plus
Arabic test on Thursday. Hm mampos la kelam kabut
banyak xstudy. But chill n cool lagi.
Haha.

A Troublesome 'Don't Trust'

2010-01-19T09:16:00.003+08:00

We see drama every day every time any where. It's because our
hearts are full of love. No love no drama no cry. The best solution
might be the worst thing you've ever done in your whole life which
is one last bitter step to another new episode of your life. People learn
from mistake and experience. Because experience is knowledge. It is either
you learn it the hard way or simple. But most of the time, people suffer from
their mistakes, and from others' mistakes too. Most of the time, they learn
from it and create a better time in the future. Some others simple don't
learn. They regret but never learn. As a consequence, they end up
being in misery and agony most of the time of their entire life. So be
grateful with what you've got now, appreciate the persons and things
you love and care about mostly and never have doubt to learn. A simple
'Don't Trust Anyone' might help. Because people are so influential and easily
swayed. They can be their true self in one day and another entity the next day.
All because of influences. May God bless us.

One You've Never Seen Before

2010-01-15T09:16:00.006+08:00

Note - Lesson in 20th Century class, Thursday, 14th Jan 2010, 11.30 am
Topic - The World War 1 aka The Great War

At the beginning of the war, people thought the war was going
to be like 19th century's wars; there would be a few weeks of war,
one-to-one gentleman's combat, and then return happily to the
country. So they left their villagers singing camping songs as if they
were going to picnic, pictures of soldiers were pasted on trains
with pleasant messages, wives waved happily at their husband as
the trains left. The leaving for war was celebrated as if it was a fun thing,
just like a game.

Soldiers: We'll be home by Christmas.
Wife: Have a good time at war!
Soldier: Two months at most.

However, it turned out that the war was different from
any war that had been fought before. One that they had
never seen before. WW1 crossed a lot more boundaries
and therefore involved more and more countries. There
were new technologies and strategies being used for the
first time; machine guns, hand grenades, tanks, poisn gas,
airship, airplanes, U-boats. It was no longer one-to-one fight.
Soldiers were killed by enemies who they didn't see.

One of the significant strategies this time was TRENCHES,
an elaborate system of defense. Soldiers dug trenches to
protect themselves and fought in it. Trenches were the
place they lived, slept, ate, shit, pee, and what not. In
the fight, many died. And the trenches would be full
with dead bodies and rats! The soldiers then had no
choice but to live with those.

The outcome of the war was TERRIBLE! Millions of soldiers
died in vain, without achieving anything. Those who survived
became so disillusioned. They never wanted to go to war ever
ever ever again. "Live was HELL in trenches!" they said. Horrors
of the war traumatized not only soldiers but also general population.
Soldiers became so depressed, suffered from 1000mile blank stare,
shook uncontrollably, hid under under bed upon hearing thunderstorm
(it was like hearing boom exploded), shook when saw soldier uniform.
This is what we call SHELL SHOCK. Hence, the war is called THE GREAT WAR.

See one more video at my previous entry.

Trembling Terribly

2010-01-14T13:58:00.006+08:00

Full story, coming up next!

Full story, coming up next!

Semantic Analysis

2010-01-14T08:11:00.003+08:00

Just completed my Semantics assignment. Darn hard!
Confusing. But fun. Submitting today. Semantics is the
study of meanings, the relationship between linguistic
forms and the entities in the world, how words literally
connect to things. But in our first group assignment, we
are given an article and asked to analyze every noun and
verb and put them into categories; Factuality, Relevance,
Control, Person, and Number.

Haha saje jek nak buat entry ni. Even orang x paham what
nonsense I'm talking about. Vvvlaaaaaaaassss..

Avatar For Now

2010-01-13T12:17:00.002+08:00

I've watched Avatar few weeks ago fresh
after its release. Yeah it was awesome and
fantastic not to mention wonderful scenery
plus heart throbbing. Its 'powerfulness'
makes it become the second highest-
grossing film of all time worldwide
and is still making money as you read
this. Power x? Congrats to the writer and
director James Cameron, because the first
highest pun is her film as well! - Titanic (1997).

Taste tak? Haha.

Of course a film is not made for nothing (even parody
movies pun have something that we can ponder). Avatar
is actually a movie of illusion that goes to 2159 set on Pandora.
I don't have to elaborate on the story line and every scene.
Go watch for yourself. But I have some words for its theme.

1- Imperialism - The world, supposedly, doesn't practice this
anymore. No one (country and so on) conquers the other. That's
why servant is not mention anymore. Everyone deserves indepen
dence. Resources of ones' land should not be dug by the unauthorized,
invaders; as what happened in Iraq.

2- Cross-culture - 20th century witnessed cross country and cross
culture migration, marriage, interaction, communication and what
not taking place around the globe. This film illustrates that
there are still constrains regarding this and I can't see
why not as long as it doesn't bring about harms to
people and harmony. Kawen ler ngan sesape
you want but don't complain later on. But
some parents just don't understand. Hmm?

3- Environmentalism - as an environmentalist
(on ad off, hehe), I see this movie as a warning; do
not disturb the ecosystem. Someone or something is
taking care of it. Do not destroy the forest by deforestation
(and so on) or you'll get hit by 'Ewa'. Haha. Of course metaphorically
speaking <== no God beside Allah. Hehe. I mean yeah destroy
forest destroys your own life and oh let's think again, the
entire humanity?

There still many more valuable values we can grab from this 2hr Avatar. But now... da xde mase, aku nak gi kelas. Lambat sudeh. See yah!

Old One

2010-01-11T00:57:00.007+08:00

Just watched AJL24. Hm just wondering,
bile lerr industri music Mesia ni nak same ngn
those award ceremonies kat America or western
countries nun. Confirm aku dok depan TV smpai abes
show. Haha. Maybekah sebab Mesia ni masih mengekalkan
nilai2 murni adab ketimurannya dalam berpakaian or
performance style. Kalau itu alasannye, for sure
aku xkan brani nk komen apo2 ah. Hehe.
Tapi xsemestinye nak kasi gempak performance
tu kene taggal stiap inci benang kat badan kan. Just
be creative. I don't know how. Don't ask me. I'm not stage
manager. Haha.

Cam si Gaga ni haa mase kat AMA 2009 (American Music Award) baru2 neh. Bravoh!

Make Your Study Efficient

2010-01-10T20:44:00.005+08:00

Everyone admits, study is boring. Even you
are studying your most favourite subject. Least
favorite ape tah lagi. Azab plus plus kalo nak buat
assignment tu. My friends and I always study kat luar.
McD always. Instead of library. Depan mate buku, keliling
pun buku. Busan! So after this, gonna resort to other style plak
ah. Like reading play or drama or novel at recreational places ke.
Emotionally. Haha. But awas! Slalunye ramai yg end up ngan sesi bgosip
and ngumpat ngampit. Hoh.

Semantic analysis @ McD Taman Melati

Clumsy

2010-01-07T16:33:00.004+08:00

Tadi msuk kls 20th Century, Madam trus kasik
keje dulu coz die nak blah awal. Due plak at 2pm,
ade 2 and a half hours jek! Markah plak aku kire2
9 jek! Aiyok. Cekup jek c Jasmin jd partner aku. Haha.

The name Jasmin is new to my blog but I've known him for years now. Hehe.

It's Not Yesterday Anymore

2010-01-07T08:29:00.003+08:00

Opening up to new ideas ..
No longer restricted to social rules ..
Upper class vs Working class ..
Gender and sexuality ..
Necessity of socializing ..
Modern thoughts ..
The 'S' word ..

>> coming up next!

Lei Lou (Lay Low)

2010-01-06T21:09:00.003+08:00

Susahnye.. Like suffocating.. Huru hara.. Haru biru.. Tak tentu hala..
Pecah otak.. Pecah kaca, pecah gelas, sudah bace, camtu la rasenye.. Xpe
la dah tu yang dimahukan.. Dikasikan aje walopun seksa jiwa raga..
Bile pk blk, betul gak.. Aku sape pun.. Badan lain-lain, sendiri-sendiri
(although I don't agree with this statement; when you are married,
you are like one). I have no choice but to lay low and slow down. One
year of high peak has gone. And I never regret. I love you, always.
=)

Lay low cmni ke? Ni lay down laa. Haha - reroomate aku yang tebungkam pas men futsal tadi. Heh jadi le cam aku, main gak tp xpenat smpai cmni pon. Coz aku xmerokok!! Hahahaha.. Abes la kau Jack telepas meeting. Aku da kejut tadi ko xnak mangon gak.

Memorable New Year 2010

2010-01-05T08:19:00.009+08:00

These were activities during New Year weekend.

1- New Year @ Cherating and Teluk Chempedak.

The Longest ever. Faizal n Akem.

The Sweetest ever. Couple from BTS (Bdr Tsk Sltn). Kekeke.
Scattered but Together. 1st night room.
Pagi @ Cherating.

Beach Volleyball Stars. Gorgeous group menang besar. Hehe. It was super fun!
Top scorer. The black one only. Kekeke.

01/01/10 @ Cherating shore. Played with violent wave. I just couldn't resist it!

Vouge. Daylan Thomsen n Hamiko.
2nd nite hotel room. Gempak.
After begelumang ngan ombak jahat, terjun lak dlm swimming pool. Haha.
Bact to hotel romm. Holiday Villa.

2- New Year @ Superstar, Wangsa Walk Mall. It was surprise bday celebration for this gal, Mimot.

Christmas in the World

2010-01-04T17:24:00.005+08:00

These were activities during Christmas weekend.

1 - Christmas @ Port Dickson. First time aku g PD n first time
gak aku nek banana boat. 2x lak tu. Hehe. Best!

2- Xmas @ Genting. We owed Firdee so much. He was the
reason I stepped on the high land so many times now.
Almost everything was free. Hehe.

3- Xmas @ Faizal n Hakem's. You guys should run a restaurant!

Nothing in the End

2010-01-02T10:29:00.004+08:00

My Gentle Readers,

Hi all. I was away eh. And I'm still away.
There were times to update. But it was
just that, I had no laptop anymore!
Sold it out already. Gonna
get a new one. Guess what, the 1st
second of 2010 was celebrated just in
car. Headed to Cherating! Will update soon!
=)

p/s - now still in Cherating. Checking out now. Going to Teluk Chemphedhak.

Farewell Kaibigan Ko (Goodbye My Friend)

2009-12-25T10:53:00.004+08:00

Kahapon kainin ako at mga kaibigan ko sa kapihan. Nakita ko sa isang tao. Kilala ko sya! Ito ay Ate Bhea! Eh at Ate Mea!

Bhea: Hey ikaw Hans! Kumusta?
Ako: Ate Bhea! Mabuti naman. Matagal na po hindi tayo nakita. Ikaw musta na?
Bhea: Ok lang din. Hey mauwi na ako sa pinas.
Ako: Hah talaga??? Kelan?
Bhea: Sa Saturday. And never come back.
Ako: Ganoooon! Pero bakit?
Bhea: Katatapos na ako dito gagawa Master.
Ako: Ooh malungkod ako uwi ka na..
Bhea: Hehe it's ok. Kung magbisita ka don bka magkita pa tau don ok ??
Ako: Oo punta ko sa pinas sa isang taon para visitahin ko sa kaibigan ko!
Bhea: Ganun makikita tayo!
Ako: Hehe joke lang po.
Bhea: Hish excited na ako. Eh meron akung problema ngayon aalis ako eh.
Ako: OOoo ok2. Ingat ka palagi eh.
Bhea: Ingat ka rin. Bigai ang FB mo add ko sayo.

................................................................

Translation (Hehe..) -

Smalam, mase aku tgh lunch n lepak2 ngn member2 coursemate aku kat cafe tetibe aku nmpak sorang minah ni. Macam kukenal! Eh ni Kak Bhea! Kak Mea pun ado!

Bhea: Hey you Hans! how r u?
Ako: Tate Bhea! I'm fine. So long no see u around eh. How r u?
Bhea: I'm Ok too. Hey I'm going bak 2 the Philippines soon.
Ako: Hah really??? When?
Bhea: This Saturday. And never come back.
Ako: Really! Why is that?
Bhea: I finished my Masters already.
Ako: Ooh that's so sad you'll be gone..
Bhea: Hehe it's ok. If you ever visit filipins just let me know ok??
Ako: Oo I'm going there next year to pay my friend a visit!
Bhea: Really, so we can meet up!
Ako: Hehe just kidding.
Bhea: Hish I was so excited. Eh I have somethng to settle right now I have to go.
Ako: OOoo ok2. Tace care eh.
Bhea: You too take care. Do u have FB I'll add u.

Tu le lbh kurang pertemuan singkat aku ngn 2org awek cun filipino member aku smalam. Hehe. Lame gile xjmpe dorang. Yang sorg lagi, Mea, still ade 2taun lg nak abes study so aku bley jmpe dy lagi.

p/s - Hmm tringin lak nk g Filipin pastu. Hehe.

Without You

2009-12-24T09:07:00.004+08:00

At times, I feel like giving up.
I'd be the one who'd call it quit.
In fact, I had. Several times.
Really can't stand the tense.
But then, I realize I just can't.
I just can't live without you.

p/s - Smlm g pavi lagi. Da 3ari bturut2 aku g pavi! Haha. Gigeh x. Nak wat cmne, rindu. Gagagaga. Shopping sesket jek. Xde le smpai taraf sYuk 2. Har3. Rmai gle org kt pavi. Ade snow lg. Hehe. Jom g pavi reramai.

Flat & Flattered

2009-12-23T10:14:00.004+08:00

I woke up this morning with a good feeling in my heart. Coz kelas
pagi ni kul10 cancel! Yoohoo! Turned left, spread my right arm,
aiiik da xde?? Oh already taking shower. Kekeke. Hm xde
kelas, but still I wanted to go out early. Dari dok uma
sorg bek balik campus pasang radio bedentum.
Haha baru bli speaker best!

Dengan xmandi g turun bwh. Panas enjen
kuda aku jap then blah. Xkua gate lagi aku da
rase len macam. Tengok bawah, arrrrgghhhh!! ayar
funchet!! Bukan panic tapi malasss nak banyak hal lak!
Aku belasah jek bawak moto tu g pam minyak. Try masuk
hangin. Haih naya! Ade ke kedai moto bukak pepagi bute ni 8am.

"Taya funchet ke dik?"

"Hoh!"
- kok ye pun bg salam le dulu dik. Tekezut aku.
Eh pehal ko pggil aku hadek? Muke cam sbaye jek!
"Sudah candu Samporna pule, sudeh tau lagi mau
tanye.." - ni aku ckp dlm ati jek. Haha.
"Ye dik, mane aku nak anto ni ek"

"Tu haa" - tejuih molot die tunjuk ke seberang jalan.
Ya Allah depan mate jek kdai mutu aku bley xnampak.
Klako le plak. Malo aku.

"Aiseh, xnampak lak. Thehe. Tq yek."

Lalu aku pun menyaksikan ah kudaku dibedah kakinye.

Laa membe kau rpenye mechanic kt kdai neh.

Tyre was flat n I was flattered that there was someone who cared about others. =)

p/s - Nak jek aku blanje mamat tu minum smntara tggu turn moto aku. Ramai lak org. Yele indirectly he had eased my difficulties maa. Tp hmm malas ah jpg len lak jadinye. Hehe.

Vrooom! Going Back Now!

2009-12-22T20:06:00.005+08:00

Alhamdulillah ari ni dapat gak aku turun court. Bukan
mahkamah daya lorr. Court futsal dlm campus aku neh.
Bebulan aku xturun. Start pose ari 2 lerr. Abis membiak
lemak2. Now gonna start work out balik. Adeh adedeh..
Tp td, syok2 men, bola besalin kulit lak. Aiyok. Seb bek
smpat men dlm sejam cm 2. X puasss!! K ah, nak chow
dulu merempit balik uma. Dinner with si dia. Haha.

Bola yg da tebogel ..

p/s - tetibe b4 kua bilik nk g men futsal td, ade muka asing tecongok depan aku. "Erm, saye akan duduk di bilik ini. Transfer. Tak tahan dok ngan foreigner..."
Hmm..

Grateful That We Are Alive

2009-12-22T08:07:00.006+08:00

Sometime people don't care much about their age. They are more aware of their physical outlook coz that's what most people are attracted to. Be grateful of how you look like and be grateful that God still bless you with more and more birthday. =)

Happy 29th Birthday Wae!

Ruma beso kat alhambra, siap ade garden kt tingkat atas.. Aku ccam terkesima gak.
Haha. Sampai2, take a walk around the house dolo. Coz awal lg. 7.30pm. Event start 9pm. Adusss.

Wakil dari pihak Shaz - Aku, Auni n Hery. Yg len de hal. Nak kene dorg 2.
Birthday boy with wife to be. Wife to be die mude staun dari aku. Sweet kan.
Bukan senang.Untung Viao (Wae). Party was simple but well done Shaz! Yela student
yg organize kn what do you expect. Siap jemput family Wae lg. Bravoh! Haha.

This Will Do

2009-12-20T10:04:00.004+08:00

Banyak sangat klo nk update neh. Meh aku ringkaskan. Detailnye next entry ek bile aku free sket. Hehe.

1- Kepulangan mengejut si dia. Seb bek x caught in action! Kekeke.
2- Kemenangan tanpa di duga di blog Primadona. Tapi sampai skrg
blm menikmati hadiahnye lg. Sehari bersame Primadona best ke?
Try jek le 'power' x power. Hehe.
3- Surprise bday party for Wae (Shazzy's boy) kat Bukit Al-Hambra
TTDI. Umah beso gilo. View cantek gilo. Clear view of 1Utama, The
Curve n IKEA.
4- Boling 2 benua kat Ampang Po'en disertai oleh 14 peserta dr sluruh
negara - 69 fam+spupuspapat.
5- Tengok muvi cite Avatar kt Galaxy Ampang. Best cite ni!
6- Join pasukan sorak plg havoc for Planet YM (rsenye asal Planet
Romeo kot then tukau.. hehe..) Bowling Competition kat Ampang
Point lagi. Wakil dari Lumayan Associates - Mr. Firdee, Wan, Amnatul
Shima, Amy Muliahaty, Hakeeem, Cegu Maria Mendoza Pantuek.
7- Now atas katil. Haha.

Panic Car

2009-12-17T08:49:00.004+08:00

We panic even when little things happen before our very eyes. Because of that,
our brain will not be functioning quite well thus we just don't know what to do
next even later on we realize that it's just so simple. That's how dangerous
panic is. Silap2 melayang nyawa. Tak nyawa sendiri nyawa org lain lorr.

This situation happened to my friends yesterday.. Hehe.. Klako2..

Tempat kejadian - MRR2 Taman Melati, bru jek kua campus nk g JJ. Haha.

Theory - Masuk kete panas2 then trus bukak ekon.. 12pm hencek matehari tegak atas kpale kot.. Panas terik!
Anto ke bengkel Taman Melawati coz dekat ngn umah bopren si Sipot.

From Victorian to 21th Century

2009-12-16T06:08:00.005+08:00

So much happened in between these two periods. Life was hard. Middle class back then
was not the same as Middle class that we have today. Our upper Middle class is
their working class. There are many differences between our era
and the Victorian era (1837-1901) but I'm just gonna
highlight the changes in terms of the way
people dress. Let's play Compare
and Contrast.
Hehe.

TRANSFOOOORM !!! KIK KIK KIK KUK KUK KIK...

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From everthing was covered up to neck and wrist to everything is displayed
freely for free show. Cukuplah ini sahaje ntuk entry 5am. Hm terjage lg..

p/s - this was some of few things I learned in yesterday's class; English Literature: 20th Century and Contemporary. =)

Another Midnight Wakeup

2009-12-15T05:39:00.007+08:00

I text a postcard, sent to you
Did it go through?
Sending all my love to you
You are the moonlight of my life every night
Giving all my love to you

My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles 'til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
I'm sending all my love to you

With every breath that I am worth
Here on Earth
I'm sending all my love to you
So if you dare to second guess
You can rest assure
That all my love's for you

My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles 'til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
I'm sending all my love to you

Tribute: I got this widget from this famous guy named Syuk (click), without
permission of course, but now I'm mentioning. Hehe. Thanks ek Syuk. Mane
ko dapat ntah. Aku tumpang ciplak neh. Improve sket2. Haha. And the song
Last Night onEarth by Green Day was introduced to me by this raretofind guy
named Nizam Baharin (click). This song is so romantic, according to him,
and I just added to that thought; this song is so melodious and overwhelming..

p/s - widget ni x repeat the song automatically. So refresh jek blog aku ni klo
nak replay k. =)

p/s - I made this entry at 4.30am after suddenly awakened. Xtaw nk buek po.
Lately ni aku slalu tejage mlm then da xbley tdo da. What is wrong with me?

A Joke That Hurts

2009-12-14T12:03:00.003+08:00

A joke can be hilarious and provocative at the same time to
different people but it is mutually exclusive to the same
person. Thinking rationally and deeply into what the
joker really intends to mean usually saves the day.
One might be overreacted to the joke by taking
it so seriously and consequently leads to
KA BOOOM!!, a big war. And the
persons involved won't speak
for days. The only solution
is, like I said, think again.
Unless you found solid
and sound evidences
that the joke is not
really a joke in
one way or
another.

This morning, otw balik campus pepagi bute, aku drive slowly n aku pikir balik carefully about a joke that I just got early this morning at 1.30 from the person across the sea, far away in Pulau Batam... Was it a joke or I caught ya!

The Rice Bowl Is Always Not Full

2009-12-13T11:30:00.007+08:00

To certain people, they are always blessed with joy
and happiness and a whole lots of worldly materials.
To certain others, that is just not the case. They are
tested with poverty and hard life. Not that they are
born unlucky but they are put that way so when they
cope with it, they are one level higher than everyone
else. However, when they go evil about it, be ready
to bear the consequences; being damned by hell and
god.

That's what is illustrated in Santau. Heh. It is no different,
to some, than other made in Msia horror movies. Pretty cliche
I might say. Same style, expected scene, bla bla bla. The funniest
part is when Nani's being exorcised by an otai Pak Esah (Bob Lokman),
the ghost made an honest confession juuust in time. De ramai sgt Pak Esah
n Mak Esah dlm cite ni, which is quite synonymous with that of cite Siam. Hebat
hantu si Husin tu, have to go thru ramai Esahs bru tumpasss. Over all cite ni bese jek.

Lebai Kudin; the last Pak Esah aka the Last Minute Savior. Kan senang dr awai g setel kt ko jek kn.
p/s - Pas tgk cite ni kt Leisure Mall, xde hale tuju, trus g Pavi, lepak2 ngn tokei perfume Rance, Kak Misha smpai mlm, then balek, then Frangipani!! =P

Arini Ahad, Storm Worriors @ Pavi. Anyone? Hehe..

Thanks Auni

2009-12-10T22:11:00.002+08:00

I just got a perfect gift. Perfect because it's just perfect lor.
Simple but valuable. Cheap but I don't care (well I was hoping
she bought me a house in Indonesia if you wanna call it expensive..
lol). "al-muhim" (what's important) is that she remembers me every
where she goes. Well not just me, she bought gifts for other friends too.
Haha. FYI, she just got back from the land of Indonesia. Melancong sampai
ke sane best gilak. Hm birthday present from family, I guess. Terbalik plak, it
was her birthday but she was the one who bought present. Malonye. Haha. Nanti
ah ek. Happy 21st birthday Auni..

Belt - Calvin Klein
p/s - Auni: "Tonight I'm gonna meet 69 @ Ampang Point. Yay!"

I've Made My Mind

2009-12-10T02:13:00.006+08:00

After months of confusion, I made my mind just tonight. I was
forced to choose between them; I named A, B, and C. Frankly
speaking, all of them were very nice to me. They treated me
well. They gave me happy feelings even though somtimes I had
headache because of them. But that was ok because I loved them so
much so I accepted them as who they really were. Unfortunately,
I couldn't get along with all three at one time because it was just
against the nature and 'law' forbade us after all. I had to choose
one and one only.

To Ms. Lee (A), I'm so sorry. I don't think you're good enough for me.
It gets worse when I am not good enough for ya. You looked so
beautifool and I felt so attracted to you the first time we met. You
are just too good to be true. But honestly I don't think I can handle
you, because you are unpredictable. Sometimes I even feel like losing
you everytime I feel near to you. I guess that's just a temporary
comfortable feeling yo are trying to make me feel. But I thank you
for that, honey.

To Chom (C), who am I to say sorry to you because you are perfect, so
perfect that you have all that everyone wants. You are a perfect match
for everyone who still looks for partner. Alas nobody's perfect. You
don't have certain qualities that I really need. Oh if only I can add those
qualities into you. But you are who you are babe. I don't have that kind
of power to change you. Therefore my future is quite vague if I'm with
you.

To Ah Leng (B), I choose you because you have what I want. Not all, unfortu
nately. But I think, I have no choice since the other two don't quite satisfy
my desire. And I think my future life is quite bright when I'm with you.
Please don't think that I'm materialistic whore. It's just.. you are the type
that I want. Plus, I think I can handle you dirty little unexpected behaviour.

So tomorrow, is Declaration day for us. I want to stop the speculations
among my fellow friends. They said too much already. They said you
can fall in love but don't cross the line. But I did it anyway n I don't care!
Aaah what a tough decision to make. I should have done this long time
ago but I was confused! At last, you Ah Leng, aaaah Linguistics is always
my passion. Literature isn't as good as you, linguistics. Neither is you,
Combination of Linguistics and Literature.

Now, I officially declare my relationship with Linguistics.

Hahahahaha gotcha!

Actually aku kene pilih aku nak major dalam specialization ape ntk
course aku neh. Ade 3 - Linguistics/ Literature/ Combination of
Linguistics & Literature. Spatutnye, aku da kene declare kat Depart
ment course aku mse aku 2nd year lg. Tp sbb aku xtw nk bwt pilihan
lg so aku trus jek amek subject2 yg bley aku add, so aku tw serba sdikit
pasal specialization aku nti. Da tlajak 3rd year bru nk declare. Haha.
Tp aku mmg dlm dilemma ah. Aku ske Literature, tp aku ske Linguistics
gak. Kalo amek Combination, ade subjects dr Linguistics and dr literature
yg aku nk, not offered plak. Adeh. So bek aku major betul2 dlm 1 speciali
zation. Hehe stiap word kat atas tu ade meaning wokeh. For example,
member2 aku ckp, "don't cross the line" means, ko terer linguistics sampai
80 bahase ko bley haruk, bwt pe nk hamek literature... Hahaha. Da aku
minat lit gak nak buek gano kan. Hm tengok le nti klo bley aku amek bebe
rape subjek literature aku amek ah. Even xmasuk dlm transcript.

Ni video yg kitorg kne tgk dlm 1st kls subject Beowulf to Johnson tadi.
Tp nk kene drop da subject ni. Bye2 Beowulf..

p/s - mampos kene reschedule timetable akuh!

2nd Day Activity

2009-12-08T21:18:00.005+08:00

Mlm pertame kt campus bosan gle. But dlm 10pm
de gak yg ngajak g uptown Danau Kota. Kebosanan
terubat. Tapi telajak lak kua sampai 2am. Seb baik
still dpt masuk campus, without being fined.

Well, ari kedua dlm 3.30pm, aku dpt msg dr geng.
Jom g mandi mande! Kt mane? Sg. Pisang!

Lokasi Sg, Pisang xjaoh sgt dr campus aku. Just kat
blakang jek but have to go further deep in the jungle.
Hm jao gak sbnonye. Hehe. So pas sume complete,
5bijik moto memekak kt depan blok B blok aku sblm
blah. Haha. Actually geng yg aku join ni geng rempito
Kedahan, dak2 level atas bilik aku.

Ade sebijik jek moto plat W. Sebijik C & sebijik A (moto
aku). Yang len P!

Lokasi dkt ngn perkampungan original people. So area
ni agak terjage oleh JHEOA (Jabatan Hal Ehwal Orang
Asli). Sampai2 jek ramai tol dak2 skolah. Tapi sume da
berangkat nak balik. Rombongan kot. Satu group balik.
Sume balik. Kosong sungai, tinggal kitorang jek. Jeng
jeng jeng!
Memang mcm xpenah jumpe ayo. Hahaha. Tmpat ni
actually de antara member aku 2 yg da penah explore
ntuk program ibadah bebudak junior. So dorang mmg
arif ah area mne ntuk bebudak kecek paras buku lali
or area bebudak beso paras ubun2 rambut.
Ceh, konon2 serigala jadian ala2 Jacob in New Moon.
Klako. Ade tugu sungai jadian gak kat bawah 2. Haha.
Nak balik da. Ade banyak tragedy mase otw, kat sungai,
n time nak balik. Syawn menang actor terbaek coz jatuh
dlm sungai ngn baju basahan n persalinan skalik! Gagaga
ga. Sampai bleeding in love. Syawn gak record 4 kali jatoh.
Haha. Yela kat sungai kn. Licin. Bebatu pn banyak. Before
masuk campus, singgah dinner kat restoran depan skola
teknik Gombak.
Kewajipan masih diutamakan.
Piki, Ben, Zakuan, Jack, Ikmal, Jedi, Syawn, Epi, Aku.

Sem II Begins

2009-12-07T21:57:00.004+08:00

Sem ni aku agak kelam kabut sket susun schedule
gara2 tesilap tgk date for add-drop period! Sepatut
nye aku 3rd year buat add-drop on the 3rd Dec tapi
aku tesilap buat on the 4th. So time time banyak sec
tion da closed. Bahananye, arini penat g sane sini carik
lecturer sumenye menyorok coz dorg tw bebudak mes
ti buru dorg nak mntak signature ntk msuk kelas, online
vacancy da full!

Dari matric smpai skarang da 3rd year, aku mmg
xpenah lgsung buat add-drop subject manually.
Everything was well planned n section, venue, lec
turer yg aku nk mesti dapat. Ntah cmne la sem
ni lak kantoi tesilap tgk date! Tapi alhamdulillah
keje aku jd senang arini coz aku de cntact num
lecturers yg berkenaan. Heh.

1day sem jgn harap bley dapat kls online. Sume section closed.

Ni le subject yg aku amek sem ni.

Orang kate LQ 2044 (Arab level4) lagi susah dr
level3. Let's see soon. Ade lg 1 subject yang aku
nk add. Between American Lierature I and Intro
to Pragmatics. Kalo dapat salah satu, aku drop
Discourse Analysis. Maybe aku amek Pragmatics
coz kalo amek Am Lit, maknenye aku amek 3
literature subjects sem ni, which they will be kil
ling me softly. Subject literature kne byk bace.
Mampuih le.

Over all, ok la susunan jadual aku sem ni. Stiap
ari kls start 10am then abs 5pm. Jumaat xde
kls lgsg. Best! Haha.

Wish me luck!

p/s - Semangat 1day g kls. Tapi byk kls xde coz lecturer tw sume students buat2 bz ngn add-drop. Ish2.

Kepulangan dan Kepergian

2009-12-06T20:00:00.004+08:00

Balek2 ngap2 tdo. Lenanye kau tebungkam atas sofa.
Cian lak penat sangat kot. Ah aku g QB dulu. Jack n yg
len da tunggu. Da bgn nti, lapo, nak dtg, call jek aku
amek. Zaassss! QB @ 11.30pm.

Haha dapat cekelat n T-shirt dari Australia yang diter
bangkan khas ke Mesia ntk aku! Hehe. Gosh aku mela
hap cekelat dengan banyaknye. Abes la aku menambah

kan berat badan lagi. Habis org len pnye pn aku kebas.

Haha. Nasib le sapo soh makan lmbat2. Kekeke. 69 dapat
key chain n sepit berupa beruang koala.

Dan kau pergi lagi. Dan aku tinggal lagi. Dan sok da masuk
sem balek. Dan kene register ari ni gak. Tinggallah rumah
kesepian sorg2.

Agak jem mase nak balek td. Aku mengantok glo. X focus.
Terhuyung hayang ACW. Hm ade accident rupenye...

You Are Golden

2009-12-05T14:46:00.005+08:00

Now, kesorangan kat umah. Kekenyangan pas makan.
Keboringan pas kemas2. Radio dipasang sekuat kuat
alam, tande aku boring yang bersangatan. Perut trase
sdikit pedih, akibat makan masakan pedas tahap dewa
dewi Kak Nor malam tadi. Nak update pasal masak2
smalam n birthday Nas. Tapi idea terbantut coz xupload
gmbo dr mereka2 yg jadi photographer mlm 2 lg.

Happy menguasai diri, coz si dia akan pulang dr Brisbane
ini mlm. Tapi happy kejap ajerr, esok sesudah subuh die
akan ke Kuantan pule. Seminggu. Then dengan xbalik
umah, trus ke Batam, Indon. Seminggu lagi! I'm so not
used to it no matter how often si dia outstesen. Dikau
hepi, aku tidak sekali.Sabau ajo lorr.

You are golden, you are too beautiful to disappear from
my sight. There's nothing can make me feel extremely
happy than to receive a short call from you, to hear your
voice so sexey.

You know what, call me jiwang karat bcoz I am!
Unfortunately si dia's not. =P

p/s: Seb bek de buku neh. Ilang sket buring. Hm i don't realize when I started reading this kind of book n watching the kind of movie. You know what I mean.

Web-Based PreReg yang Hampeh

2009-12-05T09:56:00.002+08:00

First of all, sori 2 all, Kak Nor, Amy, Daylan, Tushee, Rihanna (xtw lak ko pn ade..)
n yg ade mlm td le coz x dapek join bowling @ Ampang Point. Mmg nk join right
after I finished my online course registration. Tapi, harapan tinggal harapan,
hancur musnah lah semuanyaaa. Xtaw le mne salahnye. Tenet slow ke, network
traffic jammed ke, laptop ni ke, aku xdapat register course untuk next sem!

Lame aku tggu kot2 mlm sket after 12 bley la log in. Tapi still xdapek. Aku risau
n cuak. Sampai pagi ni pn xdapat. Some of my frens olso cannot but the rest can!
Sem da nak start next monday. Mati le aku kelam kabut nak register manually.
Mampuih...

Sori again to all coz xjoin boling n lepak kt QB. Nas xg aku xtw nape. Tanye die.
Kekeke.

Laptop ni still nk jual. RM 2600.

Result Sem1 09/10

2009-12-03T02:13:00.003+08:00

Agak kelam kabut aku tadi coz da kul 2pm aku still kat umah.
Aku kene g UIA nak setelkan saman traffic aku yg da berbulan2
dolo. Slagi xbayau itu saman, aku xkan dapat bukak website
UIA ntk tengok result exam sem lps yg kua arini 2 Dec, 4pm.
Hebat x UIA? Or kejam? Adehai. Tapi salah aku gak coz xsetel
awai2. Arini kua result baru klm kabut nk carik bank Muamalat.
Da 2, ramai org lak kat bank tadi! Terpakse gne trick yg agak
kotor sket tapi xmengundang kemarahan org ramai coz nak
cpt sgt opis da nk ttp. Xdapek lak aku nk check result jpg. Hehe.

4pm. Aku kt cc dlm UIA. Saje maleh nk gne laptop coz sure
lembap! 45 minit berlalu, still xdapek bukak website.
Maybe jammed sbb rmai org masuk nk tgk result. Member2
aku sume da menyumpah dlm chatroom masalah yg sme
ngn aku. Facebook status dipenuhi ngan perasaan frust n
bengang bebdk UIA. Haha. Aku chill jek coz mmg expected
sgt mende ni akan berlaku, every sem!

Da nk tecabot button F5 kt PC tu aku keep on refreshing the
website, baru tepampang result aku kat screen PC.

Family Management & Parenting > A-
Grammatical Analysis > A-
Intro to Sociolinguistics > B
History of the English Language > B-
Intro to Sociology > A-
Intermediate Arabic III > A

Aku mmg xsangke aku bley score byk subject coz otak aku
mmg xnormal langsung time exam aritu. Tonggang tebalek,
lintang pokang, zhiwe kachao, punah ranah, tanah pamah
sume ado bcampo adok. Paling xcaye, aku pas subject HEL!!!
Aku mmg da kompem bajet fail n aku akan repeat subject
ni next sem. But maybe that was the power of an honest
pray from my beloved mom, I called her right b4 I stepped
into the exam hall. Thx mom. Alhamdulillah.

p/s - Result cantek brani le nk tayang kt cni klo x jgn harap le. Malo hanjen. Hehe. Well of course I'm Happy at the moment coz I was expecting to be in utter depression at this particular time b4. =)

When You're Gone

2009-12-02T08:23:00.004+08:00

Hold onto love that is what I do now that I've found you.
And from above everything's stinking, they're not around you.

And in the night, I could be helpless,
I could be lonely, sleeping without you.

And in the day, everything's complex,
There's nothing simple, when I'm not around you.

But I'll miss you when you're gone, that is what I do. Hey, baby!
And it's going to carry on, that is what I do. Hey, baby...

Hold onto my hands, I feel I'm sinking, sinking without you.
And to my mind, everything's stinking, stinking without you.

(The Cranberries - When You're Gone)

Entry ni emo sket. Haha.
Coz si dia's gone far far
away from my side,
to Brisbane. Jauh ke
Brisbane? Ahh just few miles
away down there lorr.
You're still close what.
- I try to lie to myself.
Well, hope there's enough
friends to distract me from
thinking of it. =)

Seronok bile kengkawan ramai - these are my 'in-laws'
kat Teratak Zaaba, NS. Hehe.
My in-laws n cousins n ipar duai @ Genting. Firdee (wearing coat)
is always as generous as Allen Degeneres. =P
This is my gugurlfriend's boyfriend, Don @ Pavilion,
watching Pisau Cukoq. Hm not really my type but tengok
je le nak amek ati org tu yg nak tgk sgt. Heh.
Ni le my gugurlfriend, Yasmin
aka Mimi aka Memot @ Old Town Sri Petaling.
Kat uma Don de swimming pool yg maha luas dan dlm.
Wan cam xpakai sua!
Hero majalah mangga @ Teratak Zaaba.

p/s - tonight, 2nd Dec, we're gonna celebrate our cousin's bday (Nas) at QBistro! A good starter for distraction. I got a feeling... that tonight's gonna be a good night... lalala.... - (BEP)

Alahai Korban

2009-11-30T08:56:00.009+08:00

I don't know what happened but this year,
Aidiladha kat kg aku... sendu. Sunyi sepi.
Cam xde hape2. Korban pn xde. Bebudak
pn xde. Geng2 aku ntah hilang ke mne.
Ramai yg xblek kg. De yg keje, malas nk
balik, de hal, mcm2 lg.

So time raye ari 2, terperuk aje le aku
kat umahku nan indah 2. Dengar mp3,
dengar radio (Taylor Swift jd DJ kat fly.fm!),
layan hadek2 aku, story2 ngn hibu aku,
abg aku ntah ilang kmane, ayah aku keje
lak. Kakakku, raye kat Pahang uma laki
die. Taun ni 1st time raye die xde. Coz
bru kawen. Rase cam xlengkap lak.

Aku just bkak computer n tgk gmba2
korban taun lps ntk kasi ade feel
raye korban. Haha. Ridiculous. Taun
lps punye byk ekor korban smpai 9ekor
taun ni sekor pn tarak? Nape ntoh. Xmrase
le aku mkn masakan korban2 neh.
Family aku nk support korban mmg
xmampu lorr. Kat dlm uma pn kosong.
Xde pe. So aku bli le sket brg2 dapur.
Haha. Baik x? Ni le gmbo2 yg smpat
aku snap. De byk lg actually. Hehe.

So time org beraye, aku dgn xde arah tujuan g le jenjln ke dlm utan
belantara tmpat datuk nenek moyang aku tinggal dolo2. Haha. Xde koje.

Peace !!

Selling an ASUS 14inch Notebook

2009-11-29T12:45:00.003+08:00

Model: ASUS K40IN series
CPU: Core 2Duo (P7305)
RAM: 4GB
Colour: Black
Display: 14' HD (LED)
Wireless: 802.11n
Hard Disk: 320GB
Windows: Vista Home Premium
Warranty: 24 months (from 21 Oct 2009)
Others: 1.3mp camera, smart logon (recognizes ur face),
cool sound, never falls, no scratches, still new,
no damages, price can nego.
Price: RM2800

Actually lappy ni Hery dpt hadiah cabutan betuah. Mmg betuah punye budak kan. Haha. Tp sbbkan die da de lappy, die kasi le kat aku. Haha. So skrg, aku lak yg btuah neh. Hahahaha dan ha lagi. Mulenye aku ok jek nk pkai lappy 14' neh. Tp die lak berie2 soh tukau, jual yg ni n bli yg 10' cam dy pnye gak. Hm ape2 la labuu¬. So aku ikut je la kate2nye.

Sme jek gne 14' or 10' pn. Masing2 de klebihan yg trsendiri. 14' sederhana besar so puas sket ah tgk screen die n tgk muvi pn xyah jegil2 bijik mate. 10' ni kecek aje screennye so kurang puas coz ble nk tgk besa2 kne zooom lak. Cume 10' sng nk hangkut ke sne ke mari. Aku lg prefer.... due2 ah. Haha.

So sape yg nk bli laptop ni, contact aku kat sni. Klik ajerr. Selamat mencoba. Tetibe..

Laziness

2009-11-29T06:57:00.002+08:00

Malasnye nak hapdet belog. Idea manyak, mase belebih.
Semangat kureng kureng kedondeng. Ape nak jadi, smpai
sekarang xhapdet lagi. Aku rase nak buat ubah suwer sket
ah kat blog aku neh. Banyak sue. Xpe aku alter sket sket.
Sbb cam ramai yg cam xpuas ati nmpaknye. Ape kes?
Sabau aje le. Susah gak jadi outspoken neh. Haru. Nantikan.

Tecongok ...

So Much Has Happened

2009-11-26T10:52:00.006+08:00

Arini balik kg. Tp skrg 5.30 pm, still kat KL. Aiyok. Pe cite? Tiket da kul 3.30 td. Tp de member aka Kak Sue punye laki blk kg destinasi yg same. So bek blk skali jek kan. Same.

Hm lame da xtoles entry ni. Bz. Ke sane ke mari. Ingt time coti sem, bley relax2 sket. Tp ade hal lak lg. Well aktiviti relax gak. Kak Nor pndah uma! Hehe. Nantikan entry khas uma Kak Nor. Hehe.

Da coti smggu ni byk cite soka doka da jadi. Nanti de mase baru cite gak. Heh. Skrg nak relax2 dulu.

Adus. Syah da otw nak blk kg now. Let's!

Slamat Hari Raye Koban Sume

Just Another Day in Paradise

2009-11-13T17:21:00.003+08:00

Gosh I feel so depressed right now.
I try to enjoy and cheer up.
I turn on the radio to the highest volume.
I watch my favorite siries ever.
I call my friends, best buddies.
I walk alone somewhere and shout at the top of my voice.
I sing crazily.
I do everything that could help me calm.

Yet I am still stuck, screwed up,
pretty fucked up, very fucked up.
Damn can't focus can't study.
I trace the cause of it all.
Found.
It's my heart.
It's damaged.
It's torn apart.
It's scattered.
It's dirty.

God I seek ur forgiveness.
Please give me hope.
Give me guidance.
I don't know where to turn to.
I am not happy.
I miss my old time,
my old life.

...

Phobia2

2009-11-10T10:33:00.006+08:00

Last weekend I went watch this movie.
It was a good horror movie.
Typical but successfully creates time bomb in audiences' hearts.
You knew that you were going to shout out of shock,
but you just waited until the scene played itself.
There are 5 different stories in the movie.
All ghostly but not all scary.
The first 4 are heart throbbing,
and the last one is waist poking.
The amazing twist at the end
makes this movie even more interesting.
I'm not going to kill your curiousity
b4 u watch for yourself k.
Find somebody and watch it together.
Good Luck! =)

p/s - abes sengal2 tangan n bahu kiri aku pas kua wayang tu dek genggaman maha kuat the guy next seat. Haiyo tu pun takot ka? Apa daa.. Haha.

It's Me.. Always Me..

2009-11-09T08:24:00.005+08:00

People go nuts over few little things.
'I' go nuts over few little things.
It's just beyond my control.
"Control your emotion" doesn't work for me.
That's why Mr. Spidey hunted Mr. Sand.
I have no control over my emotion.
When I'm glad, I'm over laughing.
When I'm sad, I'm overwhelmed.
When I'm mad, I'm overreacting.
You see me cool while I am not.
You see me 'fool' when I am messed up with.
I am aggressive, I am sensitive.
Just a word can turn me upside down, inside out.
For that, I am truly sorry for being nearby.
Even though after a thousand of goodbye.

It was me, always me, even now, and forever.

Emotion can kill. If it doesn't kill, it hurts people so badly.

Stereotype

2009-11-06T09:20:00.004+08:00

Rasenye sume orang tau ape yang dimaksudkan dengan stereotype. And ramai jugak yang ade penyakit stereotype ni. Yep, I consider it as a disease to those who practise this practice. Sebab ape penyakit, sebab orang yang xbersalah pun kene tudoh bersalah. Aiyok. Ayat2 bese stereotype ni:

a) Orang Mesia ni kalo keje memang malas.
b) Melayu sinonim ngan sifat malas.
c) Melayu mudah lupe. (hm sape ntah gune ayat neh)
d) Oghe klate ni assobiyah kuat! (ethnocentrism)
e) Cakap cam keling. (xtau le camne, tepulang kpade tafsiran sendiri)
f) Nak jadi cino ko apo neh susah bona nak mandi.
g) Hish ni yang aku hangin gune Celcom Broadband ni. (padehal sume BB same jek, tempat jek yg buat slow)

dan lain2..

Ade yang sangat sarcartic and sangat offensive lagi. Tapi orang yang stereotype ni tetap ngan ati keringnye buat dono jek ikot sedap molot. Aihh ape nak jadi laa orang Mesia ni. (Hoh ako lak yang stereotype =P). Ade satu situasi stereotype yang best yang rasenye ramai orang xprasan. Zodiac. Heh ramai gak yang suke 'bace' orang ikut zodiac dorang. And then sume orang yang lahir dalam zodiac yang same akan dicop mempunyai characteristics yang xubah sama seperti mereka2 itu. Kan?

Bagi aku, tu sume hanyelah superstition semata2 coz everyone born in the same zodiac is said to be somehow related in this way and that way which we don't know exactly how. So any explanation regarding this is highly recommended and therefore appreciated. =)

However, haa ade howevernye, xsalah pun kite nak refer kat mende2 camni or main2 baca personality diri seseorang skali due kale, tapi berhati2 le jgn sampai ta'sub or obsess sgt. And setiap orang ade personality mereka yang tersendiri yang mungkin same dan mungkin lain dari mereka2 yang sezodiac dengannye. Kadang2 aku pun ske gak tengok2 zodiac ni. Hehe. Sebab teruja bile ade someone bacekan zodiac aku then terkene lak same cam personality diri aku yang sebenarnye. Uuuuu u've got a big secret eh.

Renungi kate2 ni, "Tidak akan bersalah orang yang tidak bersalah akan kesalahan orang lain". Aku ubah sket ayat suci ni actually. Nanti kene carut. Haha.

Wanna know what your zodiac might mean or lead u this month? Click here. =P

And then there is this one fun personality game we 69 recently plated. Click here. From Kak Maria's blog. Hehe.

Just a Lousy Thought

2009-11-05T12:00:00.003+08:00

When I am single, I always have this
kind of feeling that akulah orang yg
paling loser n sunyi dalam dunia ni.
When I am attached to someone,
I have this kind of feeling that
kaulah satu2nye kat dalam dunia ni
and therefore your move is restricted
coz you are being watched coz I am not
happy when you are away coz it sucks!
When I am single again, the past memory
will haunt me every single
day and I'm down in misery.

Not good for me and not good for the loved one.
But apelah daya, inilah aku.
Take it or leave it but I am 'left'.
Being single now is
just another bad day in a relationship.
What a life.. Sigh~

A friend of mine gave me this video when he reads this entry to cheer me up and he succeeded. Cute n funny. Enjoy. Haha.

Happy Birthday Shrek

2009-11-05T08:31:00.005+08:00

Honestly memang aku bukan jenis yang nak ingat beday2 orang ni. Request from my friends to put my beday on their calendar kat facebook pun aku xapprove. Bukan sebab xmau berkongsi. Just malas nak banyak cite. Hehe. So aku xheran le bile ade yang xwish beday aku gak. Sungguh dendam kan?

Last 31th October 09, giliran roomate aku si Shrek lak yang aku xperasan bedaynye yang ke 21. Tetibe aritu die masuk bilik bawak cheese kek. Wow pebret.

Aku: Ngaaaauuuumm! Ade orang belikan kek untuk aku! Thx so much Shrek bebeh!

Shrek: Haa amek le, makan le. Letak kat tengah tu. Eh mane nak dapat air batu ek? Aku de air botol neh.

Aku: Kat cafe ade le. Xyah ais pun xpe kot?

Shrek masuk bilik die and tetibe Syawn datang bisik kat aku.

Syawn: Weh, ko ni da wish ke beday die? Aku ngan Jack daa~

Aku: Gulp! Shreeeeeek!!! (meluru ke bilik die lalu die kupeluk erat2 sambil memohon ampun bekali2 coz lupe nak wish beday =))

Shrek: Sedey aku ko tw ak ko sorang jek yang xwish lagi aritu. Aku tunggu wish dari ko jek, haiii mane le wish dari mangkuk ni~

Aku: Aharharhar aku xprasan bai.

Shrek: Dalam facebook kan ade. (jeling perli)

Aku: Hm yela2 pasni aku approve sume orang punye!

Sarcastic sungguh. Haha. 31th October yang aku kenal ade lagi sorang bedaynye. Aiman, ex pacarnya si Mun aka Yenot. Dulu Aiman rapat ngan aku n da geng. Ari2 bley menatap mukenye. Tapi lepas break ngan Yenot, da xnampak batang idung da. Rindu lak time dolu2. Happy beday Aiman.

Shrek, Jack, Aku, Shwan. Felons of B1.3. Haha.
Alolo aku beradegan manje ngn Shrek. Haha.

Aiman yang comel.

Under One Roof

2009-11-03T18:47:00.003+08:00

I was driving home when my ears caught the DJ on the radio (flyfm 95.8) asking for opinion - "should you be moving in with your boyfriend/girlfriend after 6 months of dating?". Setengah jam perjalanan, sempat dengar 3 feedback from the listeners and all of them said NO! But keputusan yang dorang dapat daripada twitter.com, most girls agree whilst most guys disagree.

Caller number 1: I totally disagrees with couples living together after 6 months of dating coz it's hell too early and they will be too used to each other. When you live with that person, of course you will sleep with that person everyday, wake up next to that person everyday, eat with that person everyday, bla bla bla and you haven't tied any bond.

DJ: What if they got engaged the next month.

Caller no.1: Then it will be ok coz u know that that person is the person whom u'll live with soon and it's like a probation.

Caller number 2 & 3 were guys. They said that it'll be whole load of hard time time if you broke up coz u experienced every single day with that person. Furthermore, there will be no chance to have a little 'outside fun'!

Hmm aku rase nak gelak pun ade bile dengar conversation between the DJ and the listeners. Aku ade pendapat sendiri. Saje nak share this thing kat sini. Sekarang pun ramai jek couple yang bersekedudukan. Best memang best tapi ade pros and contras gak kan. Think twice, before being too wise. =)

My favourite DJ is Jules @ Flyfm Rush Hour 4p.m. to 8p.m. Hehe.

Oh Bahasa Arab

2009-11-03T18:15:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah! Masya Allah! Inna lillah! Akihrnye selesai gak exam arab yang menjadi igaun ramai student kat sini. Dan ramai juge le yang cuak takut2 fail coz carry mark sangat rendah. Namun subject arab ni bukan satu mimpi ngeri buat aku coz aku ade basic. Sket2 tu bley la. Hehe. Aku punye carry mark pun memang agak tinggi. So memang xyah risau ah. Masuk exam pun simple2 jek, satu petikan n soklan kefahaman, soklan grammar sket2, vocab pun xbanyak kua, n essay. Yang aku risau ni subject2 yang lain ni. Killers. Hopefully aku study kuat, xmacam aku study arab. Sambil lewa. Malam ni, geng2 ajak study overnight untuk tomorrow punye subject.

Venue: McD Titiwangsa
Time: after 12 midnight
Subject: Grammatical Annalysis

p/s: b4 nak g tdo puas2 dulu, mlm kang jgn nak bising2 ckp ngantuk!

Exercise dlm kls. Hehe.

Baiknye or Bengapnye

2009-10-31T15:01:00.004+08:00

Otw nak gi ngajo tuition tadi, jalan agak jem. Then tetibe jadi jem gile. Tak gerak langsung kete. 5 ke 10 minit baru gerak. Tu pun sket2 jek. Hampeh. Ake hangen sket. Tapi tak banyak. Just takut x sempat nak sampai destinasi jek. Slalu aku naik motor, tapi tadi ujan renyai2 lak, aku bawak kete. Hehe pinjam kete wira yek.

Bile da lame sangat kete x gerak, baru aku prasan, kete depan aku ni yang punye hal! Mule2 aku prasan, die kasi line kat kete sebelah masuk depan die. Aku pk, hm baik gak cino neh. Murah ati. Then jalan sket, die kasi line lagi kete ke2 masuk. Aku cakap, bagusnye. Then ade kete pecut dari blakang nak masuk depan die, die kasi line gak. Haih, baik sangat. Then beduyun2 lagi kete yang die kasi line masuk depan die. Bengap patut le kete xgerak!

Aku ape lagi, PON POOOOOOOOONNNN!!! Still de banyak kete masuk depan die sbb die terlalu baik ati. Aku kire ade 15 kete yg masuk. Agak2 r. Hangen tol aku tadi. Dasar cine bukit!

English is Fun: SVO System

2009-10-30T06:14:00.003+08:00

Kali ni aku nak cite lak pasal sentence structure of English language. Generally, English punye ayat mule dengan subject kat depan diikuti dengan verb, pastu object. Yang ni untuk ayat yang simple2 je ar kalo ayat yang panjang2 tu cite lain. Tapi untuk beginners memang aku akan explain ni dulu.

So system ayat English ni dorang gune SVO system (Subject-Verb-Object).

E.g: Nas kills Alem. (Nas bunoh Alem)

English memang xde masalah kalo kite nak tunggang tebalikkan ayat tu. Maksudnye, kalo nak buat ayat passive, just kene modify sket2 jek.

active: Nas kills Alem.
passive: Alem is killed by Nas. (Alem dibunoh uleh Nas)

So ayat passive da jadi OVS system. Tapi kite senang nak bezakan English punye ayat active n passive. Ayat jek lain tapi maksudnye same. Just tambah verb to be (is, am, are, was, were) and verb tuka jadi past participle (e.g: break-broken, eat-eaten, kiss-kissed, kick-kicked).

Now aku nak selitkan sket mende lain kat sini. Ade gak other languages in the world yang gune system lain drpd SVO atau OVS. Dorang gune ape nak tau? Verb dorang yang dok kat depan. Language yang gune system ni sangat susah untuk dipelajari coz bile verb da dok kat depan, kite susah nak bezakan mane satu subject n mane satu object.

E.g: Kill Nas Alem. (Bunuh Nas Alem)
E.g: Kill Alem Nas. (Bunuh Alem Nas)

Tak ke payah nak cakap sape bunoh sape. Salah satu language yang gune style ni ialah Tagalog. Bahase yang aku blaja dolu, bley la speaking sket2. Hehe. Rupenye ade gak yang xtau bile Tagalog ni bahase negare ape bile aku tanye. Haha. Normal ah kan. Bukan popular sangat macam French or German or Japanese or Chinese. So fyi, Tagalog ni national language of the Philippines. Tengok ah cite Pangako Sa Yo. Cegu Maria mesti tau, coz dy bukak cawangan kt sne gak. Kekekke..

Tagalog sentence structure is very complex and difficult to learn. Aku amek mase 3bulan study pronouns (kate ganti diri) saje! Yela, pronoun Tagalog jek da bape puloh jenis ntah. English sket jek- I, We, You, He, She, It, They. Tagalog ade 3macam I, 3macam U, 3macam We, dan lain2. Tengok ayat ni:

Mahal kita
Mahal mo ako
Mahal ako niya
Mahal siya ko
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Ni belom masuk bab verb lagi. Yang 4 huruf bley jadik 18huruf. Sebab tu aku suke blajo bhse ni. Challenge. Cabaran buat aku.

Well learning Linguistics makes it easy for me to learn any language in the world in terms of sentence structure!

A Moment of Silence 2: The Footnote

2009-10-29T10:16:00.005+08:00

Think im gonna be more careful of what I put in here as everyone can easily reach my blog but I cant avoid being myself; an honest person who speaks out what he sees n what he hears or what he listens to exactly as the original ones are. Hm maybe a little 'tuuut' or '****' would do it.

Ok actually my previous entry makes me realize the trick. Now I'm just gonna cite n correct things in it properly.

1- I mentioned my lecturer's name in A Moment of Silence. I'm gonna properly introduce her in brief. She was my Intro to Linguistics lecturer in matriculation back then, well she is still my lecture as I am practising what she taught me, now n forever. She's always been a good lecturer coz she cares about her students a lot even the students have gone off to the main campus. And recently I learned that she's a very good n responsible mother! I never got the chance to get close to her when I was in matric and now I very much regret it. If only I could go back in time.. Now that she's married (and resigned) and given birth to 3 beautiful children, I somehow feel that I would never be her student again; an excuse to meet her everyday. Sharing knowlegde is more important than having life of her own. She's willing to sacrifice her little extra hours despite being busy at home taking care of her just born baby. I couldnt help it but feel responsible for what she feels as she 'caught me in action'. Yes, a mother would be utterly upset when she found out that her kids are ruining her and their own life. Isn't that enough to show how great she is as a mother? Treating students as if they are her kids, definitely not so many can do that.

2- I officially deleted names of prominent figure so that people dont go across their names here and end up finding something so eye-bulging.

3- I would like to mention in detail that the phrase 'sexual inclination' was used by Mdm M and my friend Shrek just repeated what he saw on the screen to alert me. Yeah that night Mdm M didnt talk as a lecturer nor a preacher as if I have done something so wrong in school but she talked as a mother who feels that her son is ruining his life and destroying his future. I dont think that it was an emotional chatting I had with her but more like sharing what we have inside. That's why I wasnt offended by her words but yes I was touched.

Diakah ..

2009-10-25T18:41:00.003+08:00

Sayang kerane terpakse? Or sayang sebab da lame? Or sayang sebab da biase? Aku naik gile..

Staun lbeh aku idup dibawah naungan matenye. Banyak pancaroba fatamorgana. Sekse. Sakit jiwe. Pening kpale. Gundah gulane. Ati terase. Orang ke3. Sumenye ade.

Memori bahgie x lupe juge banyaknye dikongsi besame. Ke sane ke sini. Picnic itu picnic ini. Makan sesuke hati. Belanje xrugi. Hepi hepi.

Suke bile hepi. Bengkek bile de prob. Tu sume bese. Sape2 pun rase. Ntah bile nak aman stiap mase, sume org bukan tau. Ade org kate, aman stiap mase, xbest juge. Ntoh. Buleh ke?

Ape pun, life must go on. Jadi xsyok bile de prob jek. Tapi nak elak cmne. Eventually it will be ok, if only I manage to find solution. Solution; might be good might be not.

"Only smarties has the answer".

Haha.